You're back in my head, you bastard!
I wake up and check my phone in hopes that some magic will happen, you'll notice me and perhaps have something to say.
I anticipate the hours as the day goes and refresh your profile multiple times maybe there's something I haven't noticed.
I look to my right and left with full faith that I'll get a glimpse of you.
If I do see you, I can't keep my eyes off you and that is dangerous. Could cause me trouble.
I feel like I'm going crazy by this point. I'm fine for a day and mad with the thought of you for five.
I never thought I would reach this point and I am utterly shameful to admit that my thoughts or more so, you, are controlling how I function and how's my mood.
I made a vow to gain back my sanity and this is not exactly how it should go like.
Not sure if this is what you call a "crush" but this much trouble coming from it, I don't like it very much.
Saturday, 7 May 2016
Monday, 2 May 2016
House of Cards
A house was built
Out of cards it was
Hand in hand we walked in
Like fools we lived at
We dared not think about
The future be it near or far
Now is good
Was my only thought
Like fools again, as it collapsed
We sat still and got scared
Even if tomorrow is uncertain
You said, it's just you and I that matter
Only we matter, I kept repeating
Even as you left the house of cards
The last thing I saw was your back
And how you shattered the remnants of cards behind you
-S.B
Sunday, 1 May 2016
I'll say it once.
I don't build and improve myself and then give you chances to wreck me.
Staying up late on many nights convincing myself that their words mean nothing was not to please you.
Making sure I only blurt what's true didn't need your approval.
Working on my physical appearance wasn't to get your attention.
Doing what I love and loving what I do has never been to live up to the image your created of me.
At the end of my days, I am the one that's there for me and I'm also the only that knows what has gone through my head, so unless you plan to be good to me, I'll gladly hold the door for you and wait as you leave my thoughts.
Staying up late on many nights convincing myself that their words mean nothing was not to please you.
Making sure I only blurt what's true didn't need your approval.
Working on my physical appearance wasn't to get your attention.
Doing what I love and loving what I do has never been to live up to the image your created of me.
At the end of my days, I am the one that's there for me and I'm also the only that knows what has gone through my head, so unless you plan to be good to me, I'll gladly hold the door for you and wait as you leave my thoughts.
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