Break Free..

It wasn't like one of these things where people would say "Oh yeah, i know how you feel." and actually mean it. It wasn't like something she was used to. All of it was new to her, in every way possible.

There she was. Shouq. The weak skinny curly haired girl that came all by herself to a school she has never been to before and knows nobody but a couple of relatives she prayed that she don't see in. She found out that she wasn't at the same school her friends were at a few weeks before the first day of school and couldn't possibly get more nervous. She felt like crying, screaming and hurting someone but that wouldn't have helped her so she just kept it all to herself and started praying she doesn't cry while walking into that little piece of hell, they call "School".

The night before the first day of school -like everybody else- she couldn't sleep because dear insomnia decided to give a little visit. When her mother came to wake her up, she pretended to be asleep (what a marvelous actor she is). She started yawning and making those 'leave me alone, i want to sleep' noises to catch up with her act. She then went and took a shower, wore her little-too-big uniform, did what she had to do and then off to school, she went. 

She stepped out of the car and with a few directions from her sister -who had too attended this school-. She was fully prepped, skinny yet tough looking from the outside but on the edge of bursting into tears from the inside, she walked through the schools' gate, trying her best not to shed a tear. Even with her sisters introductions she was lost a few times but teachers where standing everywhere so she was just about fine. When one of the teachers led her to her class, her heart beats got louder and faster like she was about to make the most important decision of her life.

Shouq has made the decision to be an invisible and not catch attention as much as possible but her classmates talk alot. Day after day, she took her books with her to read instead of socializing with her classmates who she strongly disliked. Reasons: 1- Calling her "chicken nugget" or "bnt merry" because she says a couple of english words while talking. B- Because she's not able to communicate with them properly. C- Because her mind doesn't function the way their minds do. 

Months passed and in those several months Shouq has been taught that; books make great company, to stay strong and learnt to deal with things, she learnt to stand up for her own opinion and that things won't always stay the same.

She doesn't cry anymore, is careless, tough and just fine.

-This was this weeks challenge that Sophie came up with. It's called "Break Free". The name itself is pretty self explanatory. I did it "story style" because i felt like it suites it better. Yup.

Outside My Comfort Zone

They were almost perfect! She threw her arm around him and she hugged him, And for a second he hugged her back, but then she felt something in him change and he was pulling her to him as if he couldn't let her go. When he took her face in his hands and brushed her hair aside with hid fingertips she knew what was coming and she thought perhaps she should warn him that she'd never been kissed before (not in the way he was about to kiss her at least). But then something inside her began to change, too, and she didn't have time to think or talk because her body was melting into him as if that was what it was meant to do, and her mouth was joining his and she could taste the iced tea they drank earlier on his tongue, and if he had wanted to, she would have kissed him all night.

- Sophie came up with this challenge and i thought why not do it so i did it. (not everybody's going to accept or like it but keep in mind that i don't care)

50 Things I Like..

1-Books.
2-Being alone.
3-Healthy food.
4-Working out.
5-Making people happy.
6-Getting good grades.
7-Summer vacations.
8-Spring breaks.
9-Travelling.
10-Maintaining my prayers.
11-Twitter.
12-Tumblr.
13-Youtube.
14-Cup soup.
15-Bath & Body Works.
16-Getting a foot massage.
19-Having nothing to do.
20-Going to book stores.
21-Rain.
22-My iPad.
23-Speaking in English.
24-Passing an exam i didn't study for.
25-Being called mature.
26-After midnight.
27-Going to the beach.
28-Doing charity work.
29-Showering at night.
30-Good songs.
31-Watching movies.
32-Relating to something that happen to other people.
33-Having nightmares.
34-Sleepovers.
35-Getting a positive feedback.
36-Eating ice cubes.
37-Going out with my friends.
38-Having free periods.
39-Sales.
40-Nail polish.
41-Scented anti-bacterial hand gels.
42-Finding clothes that fit perfectly.
43-Skyping with people.
44-Getting compliments.
45-Friday family gathering.
46-Kissing my grandmothers forehead.
47-Leaving a good imprecation.
48-Getting into debates.
49-Proving people wrong.
50-Waking up early on a vacation.

After midnight..

After midnight is the time i most fear the most but love at the same time. I fear it for many reasons, and mostly because i'd usually get anxious, depressed and get extreme mood swings. I'd sometimes start my day perfectly fine but then turn into a depressed self-hating fluff of mess a while later. Its not something i can control very easily, like everyone said i can. I know myself better than you, you can't tell me what i can and cannot. I still love after midnight since my mind starts functioning in a better way (in my opinion) and i can do whatever i want, alone, all by myself. I strongly feel like things that don't make sense in the morning, will somehow make sense after midnight. But i kind of believe that anything can be done, in a better way at that time. I don't like sleeping, i only do it because i have to and when i do, i don't do it much. Its just some of these things that i feel like are a waste of time but are important so it must be done, even for a little while. This might seem like total nonsense, but it makes perfect sense to me.