Yesterday, you crossed my mind but that's nothing new. What's new is I remembered something I worked hard to forget and my love, I felt pain in my chest and had to fight back tears. Doing so, I also recalled how often you told me to cry when I want to and allow pain to be because that's the only way to have a better tomorrow. I suppose you didn't know back then how I felt about each tear that welled up. How weak I feel if I let it stream down my face and be followed by a few more. How I'm afraid more than anything to ruin an imagine I built for myself to show the world how I'm actually strong and my feelings don't get the best of me at times.. Or maybe you did. You probably did. I didn't wake up to your call asking me if I've cried myself to sleep, again just for the sake of it. You probably had made up your mind before then. Your choice was to leave me behind and move on, as if I was heavy bag that's holding you back.
You must've suffered a lot by being with a person who doesn't admit her feelings. Hell, you must've been through a lot of mental war all because of me.
This is nothing important to be said and it really doesn't matter. I just wanted to make it fully clear how even after an entire year, you're still my first thought in each morning and my last thought each night. While we're at it, my love, I cry now. Just so you know. I don't hold back feelings.
