Its been a while and a lot has happened, not all are important but I've given them the importance. Now on this night, my only thought is that I miss how private and lonely a part of my life was. Nowadays I'm constantly plugged and surrounded with people and it's getting overwhelming to deal with all that.
Life has changed and so did I. I'll stop sharing everything now and I'll be more careful with my words. As for my actions, I'm stopping what I can stop of bad things I've been doing. I need my good mind back. I, without realizing it, liked someone and on the road there, I've gotten out of my sane senses.
I hope it's not too late now. I will remain at home, regaining my sanity and what's left of my shouqness and then I'll face the world as a better version of who I am. I am not taking a step back, I'm just learning from what's behind me.
I will not fear saying the truth if something is bothering me because being selfless isn't really where I find peace. I am constantly bothered by what others do and I keep choosing to let it go but now is time to take a moment and give my thought on the effect those things have left and still leave on me.
I am not declaring war. I am just making peace with myself and all that surrounds me.
Good luck, Shouq, don't be so hard on yourself and remember, on step at a time.
